Yesterday was the third most important day of my life.
WOW.. even writing that is so powerful to me. Any guesses on what were the first 2 most important days of my life? I would think most of you reading this could answer this in 2 seconds flat.
Day 1: February 13, 2002 - The birth of Lesley Kennedy Akers
Day 2: August 17, 2003 - The birth of Cassandra Anne Akers
Now some people want to be mothers their WHOLE life. I was not one of those people. I was a tomboy who never thought much about being a mom growing up. I was very lucky to be able to see some of the best parenting in the world and some of the worst. Even as early as college I had a good understanding of the general guiding principles that would form my ideas about beging a "good parent". So strong where those thoughts and feelings I KNEW about a month after meeting Todd that I wanted him to be the father of my children. You know what is crazier than that... I TOLD HIM THAT. Even more crazy than THAT.. he stuck around. What a guy!!! Now don't think that the road to this place has been easy. At times it has really really sucked. And at times I am even ashamed of how I acted. But now, at this moment, 7:04am on 12/31/06, our relationship is the best that is has ever been. And I can be incredibly truthful... it has only been like this for the last few week. We have struggled, a lot, but after Cassandra's death we remade our commitment to each other. I will NEVER leave him and I hope I will never hurt him again (Oh how I have hurt him in the past). I hope to make him a better husband, a better father, and a better person while he helps me become a better wife, mother and all around person.
Okay that is all I can write right now. We have a very busy day and Todd just got a call from work (he is supposed to be a part of the Board Service this morning) I am worried about how the plans we had might be changed but you know what? We will get though it. TOGETHER.
Lesley is awake.. got to run.
Lots of Love,
Daria
2 comments:
Did I miss what was important about "yesterday," to the point of being almost as important as the birth of your children?
That karma sale is such an absolutely WONDERFUL idea! I think I will have to share it with some people here to see if they want to try it (sometime AFTER the Bar, that is). I'm so glad it went well for you!!
Nope... you didn't miss it. I am having a very hard time figuring out what story to tell first. I am still digesting things. I wrote that post a few days ago and looking back at it I STILL feel that way. It is the 3rd most important day of my life. The people that I shared this blog with all have similar lifestyles, morals, etc. But many of them are different religon, creeds, nationalities. Its so cool that we play well together. Another thing I have noticed is that they rank the birth of their chldren at the top of their list of importnant days (And it should be). So by saying that this is right below that (and in my case above my wedding day because it wasn't the day I had dreamed of) I am hoping I can convey to those who are reading this JUST how important it is.
Let me just say that it caused great ripples that I am beginning to see in my friends. It has changed me and made me a better person.
By the way, I do not know if you meant it but the first sentence sounded a little sarcastic. I am unsure if you were using quotations around yesterday because they were what I call finger quotes (used when speaking) or because you are attempting to be presice (man I wish I could spell check this) and you were quoting it from my post. Because If the later was true I don't feel like it should have been quoted. Everyone would have know what you meant I think.
Thanks for taking the time to write.
Daria
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